Psalm 27

I guess I have a little theme going here...passages of Scripture from the Psalms.  Psalms=balm (to my heart).

You know, as you read the Psalms, a lot of them were written by King David.  Talk about someone who went through a lot.  His best buddy's dad was out to kill him!  I couldn't imagine that.  That would be horrid.  But through the tests and trials, David found it in his heart to praise God over and over again.  So, that's what I am trying to do.

Psalm 27 pretty much sums up what I'm feeling.  Read it if you get a chance.  Pastor Jeremy read this Scripture Sunday morning and it just hit home.  I had read it before (a lot) but when the words were spoken aloud...wow.  I was overcome with emotion (in fact, I had to excuse myself from the sanctuary). 

Here we are, another failed month.  I weep with the sadness of knowing that we failed to get pregnant again. I hate being in this pit of despair.  I hate questioning (I know I've said that before, but I REALLY do hate questioning) why God is allowing this.  I am trying.  The only reason I am trying is because I know God still loves us.  He's never stopped loving us.  Wow...what did I do to deserve that type of love?  If I stop and listen, I can hear that loving voice saying that I am loved.  So, maybe I should just shut up some more and focus on that.  Easier said than done, that's for sure.  But, nonetheless, I will try. 

On another note: it's going to be a CRAZY busy week!  Craig is finally able to get some hay done.  He's mowing today, baling tomorrow & the next day.  He also has to replant some soybeans that got washed out with our torrential rains the last couple of weeks.  Saturday is a friend's wedding: Florina.  We all lived together before Craig & I were married.  I am one of the bridesmaids.  Thursday & Friday will be busy with decorating and all the pre-wedding stuff!  Pray for Dan & Florina as they begin their life together.  Exciting times!